Day 279

This is the end of Day 279 here in Knoxville, and with any luck I'll soon be having a very quiet Skype date with Zee!

Heather's parents have long been early to bed, early to rise, and, because of their military life, Heather and her husband have grown used to a very similar sleep schedule.

When you mix me in with the bunch, you have a case of "one of these things is not like the others."

So I will be cuddled up close to the microphone, headphones in my ears, and a prayer in my heart that the signal out here in the country will be enough to send Zee my love.

Speaking of prayer, I have not yet had the discussion of my gayness with Heather's parents. However, I was reading, thinking, and eventually praying last night about how I should handle the situation.

I was considering how I resent the fact that I am being judged, especially since we grow up with the verse that goes something like "Let he without sin cast the first stone."

But when I resent them for judging me, I'm also thinking about how I believe they are misled in their beliefs. So I'm judging the judging, and I'm casting stones that I have no right to ever touch.

I realized that I will never convince them that homosexuality is not a sin.

They will never convince me that homosexuality is a sin.

These two fact immediately make any discussion a moot point.

The only discussion that needs to take place is the one where we are both wrong for laying judgement on each other.

So as I fell asleep last night with these thoughts on my mind, I did pray. I prayed that when the time comes, I will set my pride and indignation to the side. I prayed that the love and the truth I feel from God will be self-evident when I speak, and that Heather's parents will recognize that I live my life with God in my heart, in a continuing search for the truth, and with an unshakable faith.

And then I prayed that that would be enough.