But I do want to say I have felt blessed by all the support I have received from you guys! Thank you! I'm still not sure where I'm going in life, but I'm starting to feel like maybe I'm not such a screw-up.
Something else that has been on my mind lately is the subject of privacy. If you haven't noticed, I use my name on my blog and twitter. I am personally of the opinion that I want to be found, known for my work and opinions, and completely honest. I am not ashamed of who I am or what I believe, so why would I hide behind monikers?
Also, when I do become an "official writer," I will need to be searchable. So why not start now?
My girlfriend is of a very, very, very different opinion.
First, she asked me not to talk about certain things, because they were very personal subjects.
Ok, cool. Done.
Then, she asked, when Don't Ask Don't Tell is dropped, could I not post any pictures of her?
Sigh. Fine, ok, whatever. I've gone this long, right?
Finallly, she said she had to stop reading my blog, because reading about herself and knowing strangers were reading it too makes her very uncomfortable.
Oh, boy. What do I do now?
I don't mean so much in just this blog. She does realize that this is my outlet, and she doesn't want me to censor myself anymore than DADT already requires.
But this won't be my only blog. This isn't my only social medium. How do I conduct myself online when I have to hide who I'm with?
Over time, I'm sure more and more people who know us in real life will also find my online sites. How do I protect Zee's privacy then?
Or at some point does Zee have to realize that the line between who you are online and who you are offline is becoming more and more blurred?
I don't know. I'm feeling very confused about the whole issue. And I don't have just Zee to think of - there's also my family. In living my life unanonymously, how do the little tidbits of information I let out affect their lives also?
I guess, after this blog is done, I won't be able to do personal blogging like this. I'll have to stick with strictly informative blogs. Maybe cooking or book reviews. Almost like a TV show, where the host can become famous without information of spouse or family being released.
But seriously, Zee's a little ridiculous. She's thinking about closing her Facebook account AND she is kinda not happy about a little slideshow a fellow soldier posted on YouTube the other day. There were only about four or five pictures of her in there, but apparently that is enough to compromise her online anonymity.
As much as I think she's over-the-top with this, I love her and I even love this quirkiness. I will do my best to accommodate both of us.