Day 224

Happy Birthday to me...

Not gonna lie - today sucks. I woke up, crying, because it's my birthday and Zee isn't here.

I went to work, wondering how I was going to make it through. It seemed like I was going to cry at everything - the weather, the guests, the birthday card from my coworkers...

I went into the break room (to see how many Facebook Birthday Wishes I'd gotten...) and saw that I missed a call from Zee.

How do you spell "upset" again?

Oh. Right. I-M-I-S-S-E-D-A-C-A-L-L-F-R-O-M-Z-E-E

We chatted for a couple minutes. She was having a bad day, but didn't want to talk about it. She was just calling to say Happy Birthday and that she loved me.

When I said, "I miss you," I started to lose it. Just that wave of emotion where you feel as though you're falling into this black pit without end.

There was a part of me that wanted to let Zee know how unhappy I was feeling, but the bigger part of me wanted to save face. Plus, I know Zee doesn't like for me to be sad, and she was having a bad day too. And, honestly, I feel stupid and selfish for being upset about my birthday.

We hung up. I cried. I muffled my sobs by eating cake. I went back to work.

I should have known better, but Zee can still surprise me. I go back into the break room an hour later, and I have a voicemail from Zee.

"Baby, I'm sorry. Don't be upset. I love you."

How did she know?

Anyways, I called back (thank you, Skype on my Phone, for always being there for me), and we ended up talking for 20 minutes, which is, like, crazy talk considering how un-chatty my Ms. Zee is.

Those 20 minutes saved my entire day.

Maybe I am spending the night alone in my apartment.

Maybe I'm not being showered with presents.

Maybe my family is out with their friends.

Maybe my friends d0 all live an hour away.

But none of that matters.

Because I have someone who loves me more than anything.

Happy Birthday To Me. :)